Uncontrolled sexual urge and Past life link
A 34 year M.B.B.S doctor came with the question - Why do I have
uncontrolled urge for sex since childhood? He said I need to find it’s answer
dr.vandana , it is in my past life .
Session….
It is a village in the hills of Himachal, a small house, six
year boy playing with kids. My father is sick and bed ridden. My grandparents
are old. A group of Jogis came, they are taking me away to help my father’s
sickness. My mother is crying. My grandparents are helpless.
I am crying. They take me very far away on to a hill top. They
cut my hair, beat me, make me clean the whole area. They sexually abuse me
daily. I am 13 year old now, they hit my penis with sticks. They crush my
penis.
I leave the area. I am 17. I am running very fast. I am full of
anger at these people because of these events. After a lot of roaming, now I am
23 and living in a Kutia. I have grown a beard and do Tapsya. There is a lady
who cleans the area, gives me food and lives with me. I usually avoid getting
close to her. I know I am not capable to fulfill her desire, so I concentrate
on my Tapsya. Now I am 41. She left with somebody. Villagers give me food. I collect
herbs and plants and prepare medicines and give them. People are happy with me
and respect me. I am happy and satisfied. Slowly people from surrounding
villages also come for medicine. Now I teach how to prepare medicine from herbs
and plants. Now, I am 66, I feel my end is coming so I decide to leave and go
back to jungle. Villagers do not allow me to leave but I insist, so they agree.
Now, I live in a small Kutia built near a tree. I am writing a
granth on Ayurveda medicine.
It feels that probably two people stab my abdomen and take away
my granth. I am bleeding profusely. I pull the dagger out and try to apply
medicine. It is a slow death. I am lying and thinking about my childhood, about
my young age and that I could not have sex. Villagers came and found me dead.
They cremated me and built a temple in my memory. It was 1885. I learnt the
lesson that forgive the people and help everyone.
Reorientation…
He said that it is so surprising that continued sexual abuse in
childhood and the event of not able to fulfill my urge in adulthood in my past
life of 1885, still have so strong imprints in my subconscious mind in the
present life. In this life I love my medical profession. Now I feel very
relieved & light. Thank you doctor, you helped me to find the reason behind
my most difficult issue in present life.
