Saturday, July 25, 2020

PLR Chandigarh


Surrogate past life regression session...... A girl volunteered past life regression session for her sister. This session was for understanding the hurdle in the marriage of her sister. PLR Session...... There is a small house. A 15 year old girl is talking to a boy. This house is in the forest area. There is a small market. It seems very old times. It is night. She is entering the house. She lives with her mother. Her brother is beating her because she does not help them in any work. She is crying. She is my sister in present life. Next morning, she goes to the boy again and spends time with him. They love taking to each other. The boy works in a shop in the market. This boy is my sister’s boy friend in present life. Time goes on like this. One day she left the home and went to the boy in the shop. He is very upset that she has left her home. The boy has a horse. Both of them left the village on the horse. They started living as husband-wife at a new place. This place is much smaller than her home. They live in a small room. Now boy started working somewhere. After long time her mother found out and came to meet them. They did not talk to her. Her mother is crying. After sometime they have a kid. Now they are grown up and kid is grown up too. One day her husband died. Now when she is alone she always thinks about her mother. She died alone thinking about her mother. She wanted to ask her mother to forgive her. Her past life mother is her boy friend’s mother in present life. She is not giving permission for their marriage.


Trust issue , Headache and Past life Link…Session written and shared by subject who regressed…. Session I saw myself in a very green place with wooden houses. I was wearing some clothing that looked very rough and un kept. I realized it was a very old time sometime in 1700s. I was in Ireland. A male life. I had a humble wooden hut, some farmland which was very small and i had two horses. There were civil wars happening, i could sense disturbance and a lack of friendliness in everyone, everyone was scared of being open to communication, many houses were raided and people were being removed from their homes , their lands were confiscated , it was a time of trouble . I knew i had a family but i was always so busy with other men discussing the day today life as we were always alarmed, armed and had to protect the family. Everyone had decided that i would be the spokesperson of the area we lived so that we could reach a compromise and settle the issue without any bloodshed. I could see flashes of houses being on fire, killing & cruelty. Next i saw was that I was in green fields and there was a cliff where i was to meet a man from the other neighboring village and we were to negotiate and talk so that we could have peace amongst our two villages and unite. I was waiting at the edge of the cliff overlooking the sea wondering how beautiful it would have been to go back to old times when everyone lived in peace. At this point i was unable to regress further , Dr.Vandana asked me to look from above, I realized that i was no more alive and i was looking from above at myself being drowned in the sea. I was pushed into the cold waters , it was near sunset when i was pushed off the cliff and into the sea, I did not really drown in the real sense as i was a good swimmer, the water was so cold that the shock of cold water made my heart stop beating. I don’t know how can that death be described but it was the shock of being pushed off the cliff combined the freezing cold water that killed me. I was finding difficulty to move above , i had no strength and was feeling heavy . I had a very severe pain in my head , at the back of my head due to which i was finding difficulty in moving up. Dr.Vandana helped me reach the white light and help me rest , I told Dr.Vadana that my lesson was “never to trust anyone”. I tried to recognize the person who had killed me and I could see eyes who were very familiar, I knew who he was. I also had seen that i had hit my head to an edge of a stone or a part of the cliff while falling and i had got a head injury due to which i had such a severe headache. I was going through too much pain and agony, I saw my soul mates and also the master light , had a brief blessing from the master light which helped me in resting and getting relief from my pain . Re-Orientation… Dr.Raghuvanshi, Now that I think of the trust issue I have had in my relationships I see it has always been very deep , there are many more people who go through bad relations or have problems with friends but no one had become so extremely cautious as i was. I had recognized the flaw in me and i was doing my best to causing some part of my loneliness. I am glad that i regressed to this life as past life therapy helps you , re live and re experience all the pain and trauma and then it releases the issue for good, once you identify an issue in a past life session you release that pain and this therapy brings an understanding that this was a matter of the past and it is not going to happen again as a result we stop repeating our fear and we stop sending the universe the wrong signals. Thank you Doctor !!!


Wednesday, July 22, 2020

A past life regression session report from my PLR cases.... My Self is evaporated. I am stuck in my present life, why ? Case: A lady doctor, 36 married came up with the above lines. The relationship with father in present life wasn’t cordial since the beginning. Husband is a good man and earns well but I couldn’t connect with him since the starting of the marriage. She has constant feelings of sadness together with anger. Regression: She regresses to a life in the year of 1920, as a young girl from a well to do family where she was loved by her father more than younger brother. The father was murdered when she was around the age of 6-7 years, in front of whole family. After this event soon they had to shift to a very small place to live and face scarcity of money. Her brother was caught up into bad company. At the age of 18-20 years she was married to a 65 year old man for three (3) gold coins. She correctly and clearly visualized those gold coins. The old man had an old wife living in a big single room far away . Both of them were sick and died within the time span of 6 months. She was totally isolated and stuck in the house for 15 years and never come out. Then after 15 years her brother came to meet her and realized that she wasn’t able to connect. Her brother noticed that there was an emotional blankness in her and went away soon. She died living alone at the age of 34 years. When she was being buried her brother was there. Soon everyone dispersed but her brother was still sitting with his head bowed down in agony. It was raining heavily and she experienced herself sitting near her brother, seeing him, after she was buried. She couldn’t forgive him because he didn’t stand by her when she needed him the most. A lot of healing work was done only then she was able to move up. In LBL (Life between Lives): Master light came (orange color) and healed her for a long time. Guidance given was: 1) Have faith 2) Don’t get angry 3) Forgive Re-Orientation: 1) She felt that she was stuck up at only one place for 15 years, this feeling was very intensely felt by her. 2) Self is evaporated-this feeling corresponds to a long hollow in past life. 3) Brother in past life is father in present life. She felt this harmony in relationship since childhood. Note... A marked changes for good in herself and her life within one and half month after regression


Monday, July 20, 2020

Fear of men and resistance to men – why ? A 32 year old strongly built and obese since childhood, married woman came for past life regression session to understand why she fears men and resist them. Session……. It is a village. I am a small girl. He is beating me (ooon-----jerk). He is hitting my lower abdomen. He is beating and beating. I would have hit back hard had I been strong enough. Now I am twisting my arms and somehow I could free myself from his hold. He is my father. I am running away. Few villagers are running after me. I reach the end of a hill. There is a river flowing below. I am falling down into the river. There is lot of fear and pain in my body. I am drowned. I am dead. My last thought was “only if I could have been strong enough”, God should make me strong now. Lesson learnt; one should not tolerate. I died due to suffocation. My body is bloated (had a beautiful body when I was alive). She told I will not forgive him. I will beat him. She started hitting his father. She was guided to release all the hatred and understand why he beat her. She told he wanted a son but I was a daughter. Ha ha ha ! he is my mother in this life. She had a son who died when I was born. Her guardian angel took her to the light. Master light guided her for present life; do not be attached to anyone, live your own life, do not hate, remain detached and work for your own spiritual progress. Reorientation…. My mother is same. She used to beat me. I was very afraid of her in childhood. I am afraid of water. My both arms and lower abdomen pain so much that at times I am unable to get up. Now I understand why I am so heavily built. I do not tolerate anything. I fight back. In the end she said, Thank you Doctor Vandana! I could find an answer I was looking for.


Thursday, July 16, 2020

Fear of losing loved one. A young person came with fear of losing close one and issue of insecurities. Session.... I am in a sandy & bushy open area. Few men & women are filing drinking water. I am a man going towards my mud hut. It is a small hut and I live with wife and two kids. We sleep on floor. Life is fine despite being poor. I am almost 30, my married life is good. My wife wears saree. It is morning; I am picking some tool and going out. There are four more men from my neighbour with me. It is very hot and we are wearing dhoti only. We reach at a farm. We work here. We sow vegetables. We take our lunch in the fields. We all are worried. All of us are discussing the problem due to weather. There is no rain. Water scarcity is too much. Even there is scarcity of drinking water. Some more time passed. Now there is no work and no drinking water. All are leaving the village. We are walking by foot. My kids are young 5 & 7 yrs old respectively. We are in search of water. After many days we reach a place. There is a well with water. There is enough open space around the well. We all drink water and sleep there in the open. This is very old time. This place belongs to another king. Next day king’s men came and all the men are going with them. Women and children stay near the well. We are climbing a small hill to reach the palace. King listens to us and allows us to make huts and stay around well. We came back. We all are making small huts for us. Most of us cook outside the hut. Now we work in the fields of people from here. We get sufficient food for the family. I am now 40 year old. My wife is very sick. She is lying outside hut and having pain in abdomen. She is writhing in pain. We all are watching her. Women are holding her. She died. I am crying. I am worried. Now I have to raise the kids alone. We cremated her outside the village. Her name was Sheetal. Now other women help my kids. My daughter now cooks food. Life is moving on. My daughter is grown up. Everyone is telling me to get her married. I married her in another village. I have grey hair now. I remember my wife. Now only my son is with me. I am not able to work. There is some problem in my right hand. My son is married and left along with his wife for some other village. I tried to stop him but he did not agree. I felt very bad. I keep on sitting outside the hut. The neighbours give me something to eat. My right hand problem is worsening. I died in the day sitting outside the hut at the age of 70. I was remembering my wife at the time of death. I was sad. In my life everybody helped me. My neighbours are cremating me outside the village. Now I am in light and at peace.


Wednesday, July 15, 2020

Dog Phobia, Convulsions linked to Past life dog bite & Head Injuries Subject: 17 year old boy, dog phobia since childhood, history of convulsions, MRI and EEG report normal still had anti-epileptic treatment. headache on and off, Recurrent throat and chest infection. Crackling sound in the knees had past life regression. Session: On Screening: Red spots on the knees and dirty yellow patch in the throat area. Divine light helped in releasing. Regression: I am a boy 10 years of age running in a street. Mob is running. It seems riots are taking place. A dog suddenly bites me. (Subject in agony and pain) [Healing done]. I fell down, hit my head and injured my chest. I am in a hospital. I am coughing. I am having fever and chest infection. I am dying due to this problem. I am sad. My wife and son are left alone. I am a light going up and now I am in a very big white light. It is very peaceful and pleasant here. I am allowed to stay here. Silence…………………… (Pause) I am very small baby boy. I took birth in Australia. My father is holding me in his arms. Accidentally I slip and I fell down the stairs onto the floor. My head hits the floor and I am dead. I am going up into the same white light and rested there only for few days as I have to live my life. I am in my present father’s arms. I am a new born baby boy. Re-Orientation: 1) He felt something moving out from knees and throat. 2) Subject smiled and said he enjoyed the session. History of convulsions in childhood (with normal MRI and EEG) maybe result of head injuries in both the past lives. 3) Dog phobia because of dog bite in past life.


Tuesday, July 14, 2020

A recollection of past life regression at Dr. Raghuvanshi’s Clinic. I am going to share one of the most amazing experiences of my life which changed my understanding of relationships and made me a better, calmer receiver of the universal energies. I am a student of psychology myself and always believed in life after death and re birth. I am educated but deep inside I always had this curiosity to know about past lives. I feel there is lot more to feel, learn and teach. Thanks to my liberal family and especially to my father who was a very learned person. I was free to express and pursue what I wanted. Despite being born to parents, one of whom is religious and the other atheist, I believed in this supreme power and followed a faith which I still cannot name. My life pattern, personal traits combined with my passion and desire to know more made me even more determined to read about life after birth, re birth and many more similar subjects. The more I read, the more I wanted to know. Life also started getting tougher & tougher and so did the insecurities. I always met people who required my help and somehow I end up doing everything for them on my own. My relationships did not last more than 3-4 years despite putting in maybe 100%. I had this weird dream about my father that would wake me up in tears and shaken. I kept travelling back to India despite my dislike. Something kept pulling me back to India. The queries “WHY AM I THE ONE TO SUFFER, WHY WAS I ALWAYS ALONE NO MATTER HOW HARD I TRIED TO MAKE EVERY ONE HAPPY, WHAT WRONG DID I DO TO DESERVE THIS ?” grew bigger and bigger in my mind. Session 1: I jumped 4 lives in the first session that explained my restlessness in present life, my soul had never rested after departing in each life. It was always in search of a better life and a better home which never happened. I got the answer to the weird dream about my dad as he happened to be my lover in one of my lives who left me and never came back. I could relate most people in the session to people in my current life. It was amazing. In one of the lives I was subject to abuse by a man of a particular belief (shall not name) which explained my immense dislike for men of that belief. He hurt me and in an incident my shoulder had got dislocated [felt the same intense pain during the session] My father had refused to take me home after my mother died during child birth. I landed at an orphanage home where I was subject to child abuse for over three and half years. The abuse forced me to run away from there and that maybe one of the reasons why my relations break. I am the one who wants to run away from the relation after I have permitted mental and emotional abuse. Ending a relation is more of a celebration for me. I have always felt and been lonely as those around me thought I am tough and strong enough to handle it. I got the answer to this question too. In all the 4 lives I jumped, I was always alone waiting, never ending wait for my family/husband / lover or someone to come and rescue me. I also got the answer why do I keep coming back to India, I was an Indian in 3 of my lives, two births in Rajasthan and one in Punjab where I died and my cremation was as per Hindu mythology. The most important lesson I had learnt was “Men are not trustworthy. They always use and abuse you and then leave” which explained why I always met the wrong people as that were the vibes I was sending to the universe all this while and universe was working to make me meet untrustworthy men . I was shaken. By the grace of GOD this insight has taught me not to feel like a victim. Now I know the root cause and all I have to do is to completely uproot it. Session 2: I was an 11 year old boy (my present life nephew) and alone, waiting for family members to come back home. Eventually everyone returned home but I still felt alone. I had a step mother and a step brother whom I loved but we were disconnected. My step mother was holding me by the elbows, shaking me and asking me to leave the house. [felt pain in the elbows]. Eventually they left as she had insecurities and could not stay any more. I could relate them to my present life mother and elder brother. I could sense myself to be between 17-19 yrs, had cut my left wrist and bled to death. Now I was a bright light watching my dad from above who was all alone. I was no more in the house. The amazing part about these sessions is that one can immediately relate the events to present life and re experience and re live those moments, one feels the physical pain and cries in painful events, and gets immediate answers to many questions or maybe better called mysteries. I remember I always felt I was a step child to my mom and after the second session I knew why that feeling was always bothering me. I also realized why there was a disconnect between my elder brother and me, two reasons : One He was a step brother in my previous life who left with his mother and never met me again and Second due to his speech problem which he has even in present life, we could never talk. Now I know the speech problem of my step brother was due to the fall he had on his first birthday and not by birth and so is the same in the present life. The incidents were different but in both lives it happened around the time of his 1st birthday and in both lives it damaged the tongue due to which he could not speak. I forgave my dad and mom. I learnt “PEACE COMES FROM FORGIVENESS”. I experienced peace, hope and happiness after forgiving my father and my step mother. I felt blessed when I healed my brother. The experience has changed the way I see relationships now and in fact the way I see life now. I now know my purpose of life. I am now sure to find the way to achieve what I am supposed to.


Sunday, July 12, 2020

Feeling confused about life ----I have a feeling that my father, who died a year back, wants me to do something. A 34 year old married woman came to me and said Dr. Vandana, I am confused about my life as I have a feeling that my father, who was a cancer patient and expired a year back, is around me and is in pain. It has been a year that I constantly feel uncomfortable because of this. Doctor, I want your help to resolve this issue. In this life I cannot trust people. Session I am walking on a kutcha dirt road that ends at the wooden gate of the house. I am a woman inside the home. This house is big. The stairs are going up. There is a room there. An old couple is sitting in the room. There is another room. A couple is inside the room. They have two kids with them. It is night time I am sleeping on a cot in the kitchen. My dress is Rajasthani. It is day time. I am cooking food and serving them. The young couple is taking meals. Now it is afternoon I am working in field. Everyone is working in the field. We are happy. In night again I cook food and sleep in kitchen. We packed everything and left for somewhere in a cart. I am feeling sad. I do not have parents. The old couple kept me with them since I was 16 years of age. They are talking about me. It seems we came very far. The old couple is now talking to a young man. They got me married to him in a very short ceremony. They left me with my husband. I am happy. Now I have a child. Our life is normal. My name is Veero. I call my son Sukha. Now my son is a young man. I feel things are not fine in our area. I am worried about my son. One day lot of riots take place in this area. My son went out and I ran after him. They killed him with a sword in front of me. He is just 21 years of age. We both are very sad now. We are just living for living. I died at the age of 60. My body was cremated by my husband. My last thought was I have lost trust in life. But lesson I learnt was to be kind and forgive. Guided towards the light master light came and asked her to help her father. With the guidance of light the gall bladder area was cleaned and healed. Now after that she felt presence of her father’s higher self and told her that now I am free and he said now he is going in light. She also received a message that when you find time donate grains and throw flowers in Ganges at Hardwar. Master light told you don’t need to panic in any situation in present life. Live peacefully. Reorientation… Dr Vandana, my father had gall bladder carcinoma. In light I felt I am inside energy body of my father and my energy hands are removing blockages from that area that was causing pain to him. Thank you so much for miraculous work and helping me release departed soul of my father to light. God Bless !!!!


Saturday, July 11, 2020

Cause and Effect #Karmic Link ~Why I have a daughter with autism/ Asperger? Why my relationship with husband is so difficult? What is the purpose of my life? A 42 year woman, with these queries, came to know the reason of her extreme sufferings. Session….. It is a beautiful small English house surrounded by trees. My parents and 4-5 kids are sitting in a room. All are talking. I am a girl wearing frock. I am a young woman in a Church. It is my wedding. The groom is along with a six year old boy, his son. After marriage, I came to a big home with lot of wooden work. My husband is a very important person, always busy, not bothered about me. Lots of people have gathered here. There is a party. The boy calls me mom. It is his birthday celebrations. I am attending everybody. My husband is not present. It is very lonely life, just taking care of boy and home. Now I am holding a small girl child in my hands. The boy is of 1o years now, very happy, jumping around. I am feeling little happy but I do not like the boy. He is not my son. He hurts my daughter. I want to protect her. I want him to go away (started crying). My daughter is grown up but it seems I am around her all the time as something is wrong with her. I always worry about her. She is tall now. It seems she has the similar type of disorder—Autism/Asperger. I teach her to play piano. Boy is not at home. Three of us, my husband, my daughter and me are here. I did not allow him to live with us. He is growing up at some other place. I am pregnant again. I am 40 now. I have lot of health problems. I have severe breathing difficulty. My husband and daughter are present near me. I think I am at full term. I am sinking, feeling numb, feel no pain anywhere. I am no more. There is lot of sadness that I did not give birth to child. My last thought was about my daughter and that I should have loved boy. I am buried, it is 1859. My name is Mary. Guided to light, the master light came, when she asked what is the purpose of my current life ? The answer came - love everybody, selfless love. In that life you did not love the boy so in this life you have to learn unconditional love. The husband and daughter are my current life husband and daughter also, more difficult to live with. As a past life regression therapist again I witnessed karmic link affecting present life so much, We must sow all the seeds in our life with love.


Sunday, July 5, 2020

Past Life Regression for Decreased Self-Confidence and Relationship Issue A 40 years woman, married for 18 years with 2 kids with severe relationship turmoil with since 5 years due to extra marital affair of husband. One of her other complain was of very low self- confidence and low self –esteem, losing weight , insomnia, feeling of fear and gynae problems regarding health. On Regression: It is 1800 time period and I am girl and my name is Meena and I am residing in Punjab area. My father is holding me, I feel good as he is making me understand some facts about life. Now my age is 21 years wearing a colorful dress, I am getting married to a good looking Punjabi boy. (Smiling at me, recognizing present life husband). I have reached at home of the in-laws after marriage. I am a little confused; an old lady is blocking my way. She is very rude, dominating. She is my mother in law. I have a very loving relation with my husband and I am very happy. I have given birth to a boy. Life is good. My child has grown up. I am busy in my family work. Now few years have passed, I am almost 30. I am not feeling happiness in family. It is my sickness; something to do with my gynae problem. I get tired soon, feeling depressed. I feel very lonely. I and my husband are not talks due to my bad health. My husband is worried about me. I look very old suddenly and I am not able to cope up with things. My mother in law is upset as I don’t work at home. My husband went to someplace, there is a girl trying to seduce him. She is not of good moral values. My husband is not able to control and now he is with that lady (she recognized her in present life). Now my husband is not around me. In absence of my husband my mother in law is pulling me, dragging me, taking me somewhere and left me in a different place. I have become a mental patient. After that my husband came and my son told all this after which he got annoyed and he took me to home. He is taking care of me. The lady got very angry. Now he is always taking care of me. I see a young newly -wed girl, she is my daughter in law. I died at the age of 92. I am cremated by Hindu rituals. My husband is old. He touched my head. When he was questioned whether how was life; he remained quiet. Lesson Learnt: You should be happy whatever you do or think. After Regression: After 3 Weeks: 1) My self-confidence is back. 2) I am happy 3) I am finding improvement in my relation with my husband. 4) My outlook is very positive now. 5) Feeling of belonging and enthusiasm for life has come back.


Friday, July 3, 2020

Why I need to find love? Why I cannot find love in this life? Session….. There is a home. I am alone sleeping on a bed. I am wearing 18th century dress, a white skirt. There is fire place and bed is comfortable. There is a rug next to my bed. I see a servant girl sleeping there. It is morning. I am having breakfast with my son. He is going to for some work. I am preparing for a dinner party. The home is big and ancient. There is lot of wine roasted meat and vegetables. It is some cold country. I am very happy as my husband is also here. He works at some other place. He brought me flowers. He visits us on holidays. After party we went to the room. He talks a lot. We are happy. Next day, he is leaving. I am depressed. I feel very alone. My husband says he will work for few years more. I started feeling things will not change. I told him not to go but he said that this was your idea. We decided that I will go and work and you will stay back as staying in big city is expensive for us. My name is Catherine. I am sitting all alone. My son went for the work. Today I am very depressed and thinking about my life. I am from a rich family. My husband came to our home for house hold work. He was simple and good. I liked him and wanted to marry him. My mother did not approve of our marriage but when I forced she agreed. I was 18 and it was simple church marriage. Later on my mother always blamed herself for saying yes to my marriage. My husband loves me but I am very unhappy due to present circumstances. Today I am alone in this home. It is afternoon. No one is there. I took a knife and cut my wrist. I am in my late 30s. My life was comfortable but empty. I was sad to leave my son behind and not able to change circumstances. My last thought was that my life and death both are pointless. Before going to light the lesson I learnt that do not focus on what is not there but focus on what you have. I am feeling that my husband is sad and angry with me at the time of my burial. The son is my present life daughter. Now I also have a feel that I did not value the love. I should have valued my husband’s love for me. I lacked the patience. Now I am in light I feel tremendous peace.


Thursday, July 2, 2020

A 28 year old unmarried girl and feeling low, a lot of load and heaviness on chest and gets angry very soon, forgetfulness, not able to cope up with stress, too much insecure for relationship, misses her mother too much. Father expired when she was 5 years old, mother expired 1 year ago, brother living in another country. Medical Health: PCOD, acne, knee pain. Dream and Phobia: snakes in dream and fear of snakes. Visualization of man with horns in dreams when something bad going to happen. Regression: On scanning on knee gray and blackness- released, black patches in abdomen-released, blackness in heart area, inside the blackness a big hole, mother is sitting there and worried about me. Subject started crying and didn’t want to release her mother. After counseling for both of them mother blessed her and went up. Session: It’s a big home. I am wearing a blue floral skirt and playing with my sister in Ireland. Now I am 21 years, married going to attend some function with my husband and son in a vintage car. There is an accident. Both of them died. My sister came and took me to my parent’s home. (She is present life mother). My parents are no more. I am staying here and it feels very lonely (a long description of life). I am old, wearing a floral print, sitting on a rocking chair. A snake came and coiled on my feet. I think snake will bite me. I get faint then and there. My sister’s son came and picked me carrying to the hospital. I am in bed in hospital having acute chest pain. I think I am having a heart attack. I am dead. My sister is near me. Lesson Learnt: One must have own family. In LBL- guidance from the master: Be positive More love u give same amount you receive I am moving from the light. Now I am in my mothers’ womb. She eats a lot of sweets and apples. I am being born. My mother is asking doctors whether I am having all the toes or not. She is happy to see me. I am happy. Re-Orientation: I am feeling light. I felt tons of weight is lifted from my chest. I love floral prints and I used to tell my mother that one day I’ll visit Ireland. I am very fearful in this life that I’ll be alone in life, hopefully release this part. Snake was really coiled on leg but he wasn’t poisonous. I got a heart attack due to fear. After my mom’s death I was behaving differently. I hope my mother will rest in peace now. Discussion after 1 month: There is no cry, no anger, not feeling low, no dream of snake, no burden on chest. I am sleeping good, physically energetic, improved memory; I am engaged, getting married next month. I am confident that I have a happy life ahead. Past Life Regression is a wonderful Therapy. I thank Dr.Vandana Raghuvanshi to bring so much positive changes in my life.