Emotionally charged PLR session

A 33 year old woman from U.K came to understand her relationships issue with husband

Session……

I am a tall young handsome soldier enjoying green grass, blue sky and blue water with my brown eyes. I love to feel the nature. My name is Xander. Some girl is in my mind. It is a lovely feeling. I am walking towards river side and see a lot of people on river bank. And there she is, looking at me with a beautiful smile in her eyes. Now she is passing by me barely touching me but the pleasant feeling stays forever.

Next I am on a horse going see the king. He along with a couple of people standing across a table is planning something. I stand there. He asked me to join him and sit down. There is some discussion and then I leave from the other side of his tent on a white horse. I am wearing a steel dress with leather belts. I am enjoying riding. I love myself and every other thing. I reach a castle where I live. I kiss my horse goodbye and go inside to take a lavish shower. I am very charming, happy and kind prince.

Now I am in my room with a big window. It has a bed, a mirror, a big chair and closet on two sides. And here she enters and sits on my bed. She talks and talks-----forever----and I love to listen-----just listen----none of us gets bored. She comes to give me food. She is my cook.

Now I am a middle aged man, occupied, feeling trapped. She is still here as a cook. She is not happy. I am getting ready to go somewhere. She places food on the table but does not look at me. I try to stop her but she does not stop. I sit on the chair sad and filled with guilt, feeling trapped and helpless. I did not do right to her.

Now I am in royal cart with a woman. She is beautiful but I do not find her attractive. She is my wife but I do not love her. I am going with her to her house. There is a ceremony. She knows I do not love her but she loves me. She expects from me but I am cold to her.

We reach her house. I tell her that I feel sorry because I do not love her. She stays numb. I am crying for mercy but she stays numb. And then she expresses her hate for me and curses me. She blamed me for what I did to her. We return back after ceremony. Now I hide myself inside a dark cave which is through a dark tunnel.  I am filled with guilt. After few days I come back but there is no joy. The guilt is so deep that I lost respect for myself. I asked my men to throw me in the pond and not to bury me. I died in guilt. Lesson learnt; Stand up for self, feel the love and believe in it.  Respect comes from respecting yourself.

As a therapist my observation…….. It was a highly emotionally charged session. 

If you feel why this is happening to me? Why this relationship issues I am facing?? Any many more why??? You can find an answer in individual Past life Regression session. Contact us at 9872880634 in Chandigarh.

Feedback - A person with craving for alcohol

Feed back of the person who had Past life regression session with me for Craving for Alcohol…

My past life experiences and the great result.

I want to share something very amazing. Here is my life before past life regression. I was a big time alcoholic since last 10 years. My specialty was I could mix and drink. My favorite cocktail was Long island ice tea (mixed with 5 types of alcohol) and I used to drink at least 4 glasses of this cocktail in 2hrs time.  Beer was one of my favorite in summers.  I could drink 4 large bottles of beer at a time back to back and 6 pints too back to back. The most terrific thing in my life was, if I passed by a wine shop in market or  driving, my body started craving for drink at anytime, I was a day and night drinker.

After I had my past life regression with Dr. Vandana Raghuvanshi, my life changed totally. Still I am trying not to believe the change Since 3 months I am still curious - Is there something in this world which can give birth to that craving again in my body.

I have very small experiences to share as I said before that I was not ready to accept the changes. Many times it happened that we friends made a plan to sit and drink, but due to some unavoidable circumstances I could never reach there.  Sometimes it is traffic and at times any other stupid reason.

Now I have a very interesting experience to share. I went to Saturday night party. I decided that no matter what today I will drink.  That’s what my mind said. So I went to very well known and good club. I ordered my favorite cocktail. You will not believe what happened after I had my first sip. It felt like I am new to drink and felt the drink is very strong. And I was not able to drink my all time favorite cocktail. Still I thought I will drink it in anyways because the drink was expensive too.  So I started having  small sips and it took me 1hr 30 mins to finish half glass and at the end I thought I can't  drink it anymore. I left the drink in between. It is the most unbelievable turn which my life took. We have to accept the reality in the end. Now I truly accept from my heart the change that has taken place in my life and the total credit goes to Dr. Vandana Raghuvanshi.

She is great doctor and a great person too. She understands the feeling of the patients and treat them accordingly. Apart from this life which I shared with you I had regressed 3 more lives during the session. Many other changes have taken place in my life. My life is getting better day by day and this is all because of Dr. Vandana Raghvanshi. Many problems of my life have been resolved and I really appreciate Dr. Raghuvanshi’s effort and the grace of God which she has.

Happiness - look within

Happiness lies within self….. Lesson learnt

Session…..

I a woman in my thirties, dressed in a white top, pleated skirt, a golden belt and shoes. It seems I am a woman of status. I am single and rich but feel I have nothing despite having all the wealth.   I am with a tall man in a very expensive three piece grey suit. He is smoking a pipe. He is sitting on a bench and I am lying down resting my head in his lap. I am listening and looking at him. I hope the promises he is making are true but deep inside me I know these too are empty and shallow. I had many short term relationships without expecting anything out of these relationships. I felt they were too shallow.

I am at an event.  I am wearing a long white gown, expensive jewels and carrying a fur coat. There is press and cameras are flashing. I am very comfortable with the attention. I am a famous Hollywood actress.

I am rehearsing for a live musical performance on the stage. Now it is evening. The hall is full of people. I along with a group of girls am performing a song and dance musical. I am singing and dancing both. The girls are also dancing along with me. The tall man is there at the back stage. I get injured and hurt while performing [visible pain symptoms].  I have fracture.

I return to work after my healing but they refuse me the work. A new girl has replaced me. My contract was cancelled after my injury.  I am furious and angry. I am sad too because my short term fame would fade away soon.  I met the performer who has replaced me. I mixed her drink with some substance which made her very sick.  I treated her badly. I was hurt and held her responsible for my misery. I am drinking and smoking excessively.  I am lonely and sad.

I am dead. I died of overdose of drug and alcohol. My two domestic help discovered my body. They were not shocked as they were expecting this to happen. I was always drunk and not very nice to them either. Maybe they also felt relieved. There are just 2-3 persons at my funeral. I died a very sad and lonely death. I moved above, it was not easy for me to move up. I am in the white light. I feel I have to rest here. Master soul blessed me for a very long time and wanted me to have patience [visibly cried]. I felt it was a life wasted. I was very famous and wealthy but not happy ……...I was lonely!

Reorientation……

I model in selective assignments. I participated in small pageants and have always won the crown. I never wanted to be in limelight and too much attention never excited me. I don’t remember taking compliments seriously ever. People found in me resemblance to various personalities both of the Bollywood and Hollywood .....But all this never flattered and made me happy. I inherit a sense of style and have been complimented for my unique style. I can be both at the heart of a gathering or feel extremely aloof even amongst most close ones. I turned down movie offers. I would get selected after auditions and would start praying God help me please out of it.  Almost every person I have met told me I should take modeling and acting seriously but the immediate thought would be “They can’t even imagine what a sad and lonely life that would be”.

The past life regression left a strange feeling. I was unhappy because I thought my fame will fade away soon and it resulted in self abuse. I was searching for happiness in the public applause. I never bothered to ponder over what I was doing for my own self and what did my lonely heart wanted. The measure of my achievement, success and satisfaction has been the public applause to my performances. It seems I carried it with me even in this life. I, as an actor, always performed to make sure everyone else is happy and pleased. It has been the only measure of my success. I never thought what I wanted.  Lesson learnt; “Look for happiness within, search of happiness in your surroundings end up being alone and wasted.”

Amazing! I feel so much at calm and peace today. I understand  that all problems in life will not get resolved at a click but if a person becomes compassionate, non- judgmental, stop playing victim, do not hold others responsible instead look for solutions and answers within will help remain grounded and happy.

Inflated Ego and past life link

Ego and Past life link….

A 28 year old well educated, married, NRI woman having 1 year old son came to find the answer as to…..

1.       Why sometimes my ego possesses my mind completely like an evil? My ego is too strong that Jealousy & hatred preoccupies my mind very often.

2.       Why do I enjoy negative visualization?

She said Dr. Vandana, if you can help me to find the reason for all this , I will be at peace.

Session…..

I am a child playing with my sister. We are orphans living in a Church. I am 16 now. I leave my sister in the Church for her safety and join army. I did not want to live in the Church any more. I am under training and live in a tent.  I am 24 years of age and an army officer now. I am posted in prison. I am married now. I drink a lot at home and torture my wife physically & emotionally both. I feel very happy when she cries. I am in some European country.

I am now 40 and on duty. I am standing along with three four men in a very dirty room. There is a girl. She is very afraid of me. I beat and torture her. I feel very happy when she cries in pain. We all rape her and laugh. I go home, drink and beat my wife. My life is like this, I torture prisoners in jail and wife at home. I feel happy when they are in pain.

My home is located in isolation and only two of us live here. I drink a lot. She looks very afraid. Now I am torturing her. She is crying and pleading don’t do this, don’t do this. I tortured her to death. I cremated her and no one questioned me.

I am 50 plus now. I constantly hear her cries. I feel guilty. I cannot do anything now. I cannot forget her. I am 70 years old and all alone. Nobody meets me. I cough a lot. I feel guilty but I still want to torture someone. There is pin drop silence in the house. I want to die. I leave home and climb up to a cliff. I jumped into water below and fall on my head. My lungs are filled with water. I have drowned. I am dead. My corpse is floating in the water.

Guided to the light ….Master light advised to serve people unconditionally in the present life to get happiness.

Reorientation…

She told I have carried Ego and anger from my past life. Now after experiencing my past life I understand how much harm it can do to me and my family. It has been an eye opening for me. With masters guidance now I will do social service. My negative visualization is also linked to my weird actions in past life memory. I do hope I have released this pattern today. Doctor, I also wish to share with you that I never shared with anyone till date that I was badly molested by three men in my teen age in this present life. Today I know why it happened to me. She looked very relaxed and expressed her deepest gratitude to me.

Present life pattern & Past life link

Present life pattern and link to past life.

A 49 years old man had past life regression to understand “Why certain events and behavior tend to repeat themselves in his life?” He said, Doctor, I feel that I have some past life link to my life pattern and I wish to understand it.

Session…..

There are dark clouds in the sky. I am a small child looking down at water. I am all alone and scared. I go inside the house. A lady with covered head is sitting and grinding wheels. She is my mother. I am playing in the fields in front of the house. 

Some men are fighting with swords. My mother is holding me tightly. A man’s stomach is pierced with the sword and he starts bleeding. He is my father. He fell to ground. It seems he is dead. All the men leave now. A lot of turbaned people wearing white dress came for cremation. I lit his funeral pyre. My mother is crying and ladies are consoling her. I am hungry. There is nothing to eat. Someone brought food. My mother gives me bath and then gave me food to eat.

I am 20 year old young man. I am with a lot of young boys. The fields are green. There is a big pillared entry gate to village. There is a Mela [a festival]. There is a merry go round, bangle shops, eateries and lot of people in the Mela.

I am 40 sitting under a tree. A lot of people are gathered around me and looking at me. People ask me to settle the dispute. A woman is crying because of the fight with her husband. Two boys fought over land. People accept my advice and judgment.

I am wearing white clothes and going to another village along with many other people on a horse. We all are armed with swords. Here also a lot of people are gathered under the tree and are waiting for me. They look forward for settlement of their disputes. It feels good that I am able to help them.

I am 50. I did not marry. My mother is grown old. There is fierce fighting going on. I am the leader of a 500 men army of villagers from my village and the villages I visit. We are dressed in white and the other party is in blue dress. We are defending ourselves against their attack on us. A lot of people die and there is lot of blood on the ground. It seems we have won as our attackers are running away. I am injured on the back.  It is night and people are keeping a vigil with the help of fire torches. Next day mass funeral pyres are lit.

A lot of men died in the fight. I am arranging livelihood for the families of the dead. Now things are peaceful. It seems my village is somewhere near Attari. I am getting old. I remain at home most of the time. My mother is no more. I am alone. Lots of people come to me with their problems. There is a black marble plate at the gate of my home. “RoopHazara” is written in Punjabi on it.  I am now 90 years. I slept in the night and did not wake up again. Thousands of people came. They are carrying me. Everybody is crying. Local priest lit my funeral pyre. The “RoopHazara” house is now a monument for them. I was very satisfied with my life. Guided to light, I receive guidance for my current life. Lesson learnt… Service to others is a matter of great satisfaction.

Re-orientation

He said, Thank you Dr. Raghuvanshi, I have experienced an amazing journey. I will never forget this amazing experience.

Emotional attachment & Past life link

Query:  What is my link with her and her two daughters?

A 30 year old bachelor in relationship with a married woman for the last 3 years came for past life regression. He feels attached to her daughters more than her. He was looking for an answer to his Why?

Session…..

It’s a palace somewhere in the state of Rajasthan. There is lot of hustle and bustle all around. I am 30 and the ruler but not happy. I feel lonely. None is close to me. I have three queens but no children.

There are many Dasi’s in the palace. One of them is very beautiful. I am very attached to her. I am 40 now and married her (married woman in my present life). I am very happy. I have two daughters from her. They are growing up. Time is running smoothly.

Now I am under lot of tension because of the other three queens. My daughters are getting trained in warfare. They sit with me Raj Durbar. They are learning everything very fast. They are very bright girls. My tension of the palace is increasing. Now my daughters are young women. They do not want to marry. After taking my loyal Mantri in confidence I crowned the elder daughter the ruler and made the younger one Senapati. [married woman’s two daughters]. They both are ruling very well. There is no risk to my palace and kingdom.

At the age of 62, I leave palace along with Dasi, my fourth wife, to live in forest. My daughters visit and meet me. I am very happy and peaceful here. We are together all the time during their visits. I died at the age of 70. My last thought was; I wanted to live with her more. Lesson learnt “Happiness is very important in life”.

REORIENTATION……..

This woman and her two daughters are the same. I loved all three of them so much in the past life that is why we are not able to part ways despite so many odds in our relationship.

Disturbing dream & Past life link

The subject has a sense of belonging to old Forts and recurrent dream of jumping off the cliff linked to his Past life.

Session…..

It is Jaisalmer in the year 1868.  My mother calls me Bhanu Pratap. I am 20 years. My father has fixed my marriage with Senapati’s daughter. My mother is happy. I am getting married.  I feel my married life is not good. My wife does not sleep with me. It seems she loves someone else. We do not have children even after five years of my marriage.

I am 35 and going all alone somewhere. I reach a Guffa and enter inside. I am digging. I bury something. I ride back to the palace. 

I am walking in the dimly lit corridor in the palace. I reach near the room at the end of corridor. My wife is lying in an intimate position with a man. They are speaking to each other and laughing. I feel bad and am hurt. I return back.

I gag my wife and drag her down the stairs to the pond. I drown her in water. I killed her. I spent whole night near the pond. Next morning I tie that man with rope and drag him to the jungle. I am very angry. I left him badly injured in the jungle. I now climb up the hill and reach the cliff. I jump of the cliff and fall to the ground hitting many trees on the way. My left palm is badly injured. My head hit the ground. I am hurt badly and bleeding. I die. Lesson learnt; One cannot get love by force. Patience is required.

Reorientation…..

Doctor Raghuvanshi, I need to have patience in current life also and now I will work on developing patience in life. I have a birth mark on my left palm.

Gruesome End & Demonic Entry in Past Life.

Gruesome End & Demonic Entry in Past Life.

A 33 years old educated woman living separately with her eight year old son. Her son is not able to speak. She faced physical and mental torture at the highest level in married life. She feels responsible for her son’s problem; her state of mind is not settled.  Also feels a “Black Saya” covering her off and on.  She cannot let go her separated husband though she fears danger to her life. She still resists divorce.

Regression: 

I am 19 year old girl and in a marriage party.  A handsome man in Navy dress is giving me a lot of attention. There is another man looking at us with jealousy. He came to our home and talked to my parents. We are getting married. He doubts me. My life is very miserable now.  I have two sons. I am under stress and fear of life. I am lonely. My husband is beating me. There is severe pain in spine and legs. I am crying.

I am walking towards my home. There is the Navy man on road and he is trying to talk to me. I am running away from him. My husband is looking from the window. I reached home. I am very scared. He is beating me and dragged me to the bedroom.  He hit me on the head with a rod. My head is wounded on right side and is bleeding. He strangulated me. I am in my bedroom on the 1^st floor of my home.  There is blood on the bed sheet and wall.  My body is severely mutilated. The room is very cold.  I am 26 year old.  My name is Maryanne. I am dead.   My husband is pacing fast in the room. He has killed me. He is also my present life husband. (visibly felt body pain and  sadness. She cried a lot). It is dark now. There is another dirty wound on left side of my head. It looks very odd as it is not bleeding.  Blackness is entering inside the body from this wound.  There is lot of chilling in spine. It is scary. (Healing done). I am buried. There are very few people at my funeral. Nobody asks anything from my husband. My sons are crying and keeping yellow flowers (subject cried a lot). Lesson learnt: I regret not being fearless.

I am a red flame. I am angry and frustrated. (Healing done). Now I am whiter and going up in white light. It’s peaceful here. Received Guidance from my master white bluish light; you will now let go. (Subject relaxed and became quiet)

Re-orientation:  I am repeating similar married life pattern. I am feeling “I can let go”. Now I will not live in fear.

Recollection of past life session

A recollection of past life regression at Dr.  Raghuvanshi’s Clinic.

I am going to share one of the most amazing experiences of my life which changed my understanding of relationships and made me a better, calmer receiver of the universal energies.

I am a student of psychology myself and always believed in life after death and re birth.  I am educated but deep inside I always had this curiosity to know about past lives.  I feel there is lot more to feel, learn and teach. Thanks to my liberal family and especially to my father who was a very learned person. I was free to express and pursue what I wanted. Despite being born to parents, one of whom is religious and the other atheist, I believed in this supreme power and followed a faith which I still cannot name.

My life pattern, personal traits combined with my passion and desire to know more made me even more determined to read about life after birth, re birth and many more similar subjects. The more I read, the more I wanted to know. Life also started getting tougher & tougher and so did the insecurities.

I always met people who required my help and somehow I end up doing everything for them on my own.  My relationships did not last more than 3-4 years despite putting in maybe 100%.  I had this weird dream about my father that would wake me up in tears and shaken. I kept travelling back to India despite my dislike. Something kept pulling me back to India. The queries “WHY AM I THE ONE TO SUFFER, WHY WAS I ALWAYS ALONE NO MATTER HOW HARD I TRIED TO MAKE EVERY ONE HAPPY, WHAT WRONG DID I DO TO DESERVE THIS ?” grew bigger and bigger in my mind.

Session 1:

I jumped 4 lives in the first session that explained my restlessness in present life, my soul had never rested after departing in each life. It was always in search of a better life and a better home which never happened. I got the answer to the weird dream about my dad as he happened to be my lover in one of my lives who left me and never came back.  I could relate most people in the session to people in my current life. It was amazing.

In one of the lives I was subject to abuse by a man of a particular belief (shall not name) which explained my immense dislike for men of that belief. He hurt me and in an incident my shoulder had got dislocated [felt the same intense pain during the session]

My father had refused to take me home after my mother died during child birth. I landed at an orphanage home where I was subject to child abuse for over three and half years.  The abuse forced me to run away from there and that maybe one of the reasons why my relations break. I am the one who wants to run away from the relation after I have permitted mental and emotional abuse. Ending a relation is more of a celebration for me.

I have always felt and been lonely as those around me thought I am tough and strong enough to handle it. I got the answer to this question too. In all the 4 lives I jumped, I was always alone waiting, never ending wait for my family/husband / lover or someone to come and rescue me. I also got the answer why do I keep coming back to  India, I was an Indian in 3 of my lives, two births in Rajasthan and one in Punjab where I died and my cremation was as per Hindu mythology.

The most important lesson I had learnt was “Men are not trustworthy. They always use  and abuse you and then leave” which explained why I always met the wrong people as that were the vibes I was sending  to the universe all this while and universe was working to make me meet untrustworthy men . I was shaken.

By the grace of GOD this insight has taught me not to feel like a victim. Now I know the root cause and all I have to do is to completely uproot it.

Session 2:

I was an 11 year old boy (my present life nephew) and alone, waiting for family members to come back home. Eventually everyone returned home but I still felt alone. I had a step mother and a step brother whom I loved but we were disconnected. My step mother was holding me by the elbows, shaking me and asking me to leave the house. [felt pain in the elbows]. Eventually they left as she had insecurities and could not stay any more. I could relate them to my present life mother and elder brother.

I could sense myself to be between 17-19 yrs, had cut my left wrist and bled to death. Now I was a bright light watching my dad from above who was all alone.  I was no more in the house.

The amazing part about these sessions is that one can immediately relate the events to present life and re experience and re live those moments, one feels the physical pain and cries in painful events, and gets immediate answers to many questions or maybe better called mysteries. 

I remember I always felt I was a step child to my mom and after the second session I knew why that feeling was always bothering me.

I also realized why there was a disconnect between my elder brother and me, two reasons : One  He was a step brother in my previous life who left with his mother and never met me again and  Second due to his speech problem which he has even in present life, we could never talk.

Now I know the speech problem of my step brother was due to the fall he had on his first birthday and not by birth and so is the same in the present life. The incidents were different but in both lives it happened around the time of his 1^st birthday and in both lives it damaged the tongue due to which he could not speak.

I forgave my dad and mom. I learnt “PEACE COMES FROM FORGIVENESS”. I experienced peace, hope and happiness after forgiving my father and my step mother. I felt blessed when I healed my brother.

The experience has changed the way I see relationships now and in fact the way I see life now. I now know my purpose of life. I am now sure to find the way to achieve what I am supposed to.

Spiritual insight instrumental in introduction of positive changes.

Spiritual curiosity and past life link.

A man, 43 year of age, with spiritual curiosity came for past life regression. He said Dr. Vandana, I look forward to find answer to my this feeling in my PLR session.

Session…….

I am 12 year boy. Ours is a happy family living in a thatched roof hut somewhere in Bhutan. My parents treat me differently and give me lot of respect. They think I am blessed and different. They send me to the Monastery for me to develop into a spiritual person. I am 20. I meditate and am at peace. I do not work with my family. They provide me with everything. There is a beautiful girl nearby. We look at each other. Sometimes, I think why my parents elevated me?  I am 40 now. I tutor spirituality and give Diksha. My parents and others still provide everything to me. I eat a lot and am fat now. Meditation and teaching is my daily routine but at times I miss love in my life.

I had a glimpse of my past life while meditating. “I am a cruel Mughal emperor. I killed many people without any remorse. I had a wife but I never loved her”. I changed a lot after this experience. I understood one should always remain happy. Do not yearn for love because you will get it only when you are destined. My teachings are improved now. I am at peace & in bliss. I die a natural death at the age of 60. My last thought is “Prayer is communication with God”. My body is cremated with lot of respect. Divine light came to take me up.

Reorientation….

He said in my past, the glimpse of my past life experience brought positive changes in me. That is why I felt the need for PLR session in this life. Now, I will grow spiritually very fast in this life. Thank you very much and grateful Dr. Raghuvanshi for guiding me through this wonderful past life journey.

Happiness lies within self ----Lesson learnt

Happiness lies within self….. Lesson learnt

Session…..

I a woman in my thirties, dressed in a white top, pleated skirt, a golden belt and shoes. It seems I am a woman of status. I am single and rich but feel I have nothing despite having all the wealth.   I am with a tall man in a very expensive three piece grey suit. He is smoking a pipe. He is sitting on a bench and I am lying down resting my head in his lap. I am listening and looking at him. I hope the promises he is making are true but deep inside me I know these too are empty and shallow. I had many short term relationships without expecting anything out of these relationships. I felt they were too shallow.

I am at an event.  I am wearing a long white gown, expensive jewels and carrying a fur coat. There is press and cameras are flashing. I am very comfortable with the attention. I am a famous Hollywood actress.

I am rehearsing for a live musical performance on the stage. Now it is evening. The hall is full of people. I along with a group of girls am performing a song and dance musical. I am singing and dancing both. The girls are also dancing along with me. The tall man is there at the back stage. I get injured and hurt while performing [visible pain symptoms].  I have fracture.

I return to work after my healing but they refuse me the work. A new girl has replaced me. My contract was cancelled after my injury.  I am furious and angry. I am sad too because my short term fame would fade away soon.  I met the performer who has replaced me. I mixed her drink with some substance which made her very sick.  I treated her badly. I was hurt and held her responsible for my misery. I am drinking and smoking excessively.  I am lonely and sad.

I am dead. I died of overdose of drug and alcohol. My two domestic help discovered my body. They were not shocked as they were expecting this to happen. I was always drunk and not very nice to them either. Maybe they also felt relieved. There are just 2-3 persons at my funeral. I died a very sad and lonely death. I moved above, it was not easy for me to move up. I am in the white light. I feel I have to rest here. Master soul blessed me for a very long time and wanted me to have patience [visibly cried]. I felt it was a life wasted. I was very famous and wealthy but not happy ……...I was lonely!

Reorientation……

I model in selective assignments. I participated in small pageants and have always won the crown. I never wanted to be in limelight and too much attention never excited me. I don’t remember taking compliments seriously ever. People found in me resemblance to various personalities both of the Bollywood and Hollywood .....But all this never flattered and made me happy. I inherit a sense of style and have been complimented for my unique style. I can be both at the heart of a gathering or feel extremely aloof even among the most close ones. I turned down movie offers. I would get selected after auditions and would start praying God help me please out of it.  Almost every person I have met told me I should take modeling and acting seriously but the immediate thought would be “They can’t even imagine what a sad and lonely life that would be”.

The past life regression left a strange feeling. I was unhappy because I thought my fame will fade away soon and it resulted in self abuse. I was searching for happiness in the public applause. I never bothered to ponder over what I was doing for my own self and what did my lonely heart wanted. The measure of my achievement, success and satisfaction has been the public applause to my performances. It seems I carried it with me even in this life. I, as an actor, always performed to make sure everyone else is happy and pleased. It has been the only measure of my success. I never thought what I wanted.  Lesson learnt; “Look for happiness within, search of happiness in your surroundings end up being alone and wasted.”

Amazing! I feel so much at calm and peace today. I understand  that all problems in life will not get resolved at a click but if a person becomes compassionate, non- judgmental, stop playing victim, do not hold others responsible instead look for solutions and answers within will help remain grounded and happy.

A Peep into past life

A peep into the past.

Session….

There is a white lily flower in the divine garden. I am walking on the stone pathway towards a small iron gate. I open the gate and enter into the thick fog.  I keep walking as if I know the way. I am in a forest of thick vegetation.  I can hardly see the sky as the trees are so dense. It is morning. I am walking through the trees, sure of my way and reach a stream.  I want to cross the stream but I cannot. There is a wooden hut across the stream.  I call but there is no answer. It seems there is no one in the hut. I walk along the stream and keep walking. I am happy though alone. There is a waterfall, high and deep. I am standing on a boulder on top of it. I am naked and preparing for a dive. There is a black thread like necklace around my neck. I have long black hair and youthful features. I am a young handsome boy, probably in my twenties. I take the dive into the fall. The water is refreshingly cool. I am happy to be here. I am beyond the birth and death cycle. Nature is my mother. I must protect the forest and save the trees and animals. I am guardian of the forest. I take care of the trees and animals. I talk to them. I sleep on the trees at night. I do not go anywhere. I live in the forest. It is my home.

I am a sheriff in Texas in 1970s. There are wooden houses with conical roofs. I am a cowboy. I have black hair, moustache and hard set eyes. I wear a hat and spurs in my leather boots.  I am chewing a straw of grass.  woman in white frill dress with lots of laces is waving a white handkerchief. It is a desert.

There is a ceremony before the launch. Everyone has come to say goodbye. There is American flag and everyone is singing God bless America. There are red and blue balloons. I am a member of a team of six. It is a mission to the moon.

My name is Michael B. And I came to moon with 5 other members. One of them was a woman.  I am an engineer and a farmer. I have a farm and a tractor. We grow wheat. My children are named Joanna and Philip. They have brown hair and bluish green eyes. I am playing with them in the yard. The boy wants to piggy ride on my back. I am wearing khaki pants and a black shirt. I have brown hair and brownish beard. My wife is beautiful. She is wearing a white polka dress with red dots. She is dark skinned with brownish blonde hair. She is Abhilasha.

I am looking at the earth from space. It is a ball of blue. It is amazing. I am floating over the moon. I have been left behind by my team. I had to stay for the mission. I am running low on oxygen. I see my children. I miss my children. I am singing a country song. I want to use the last breath for song. I am gasping now. It's getting dark in front of my eyes. I can't breathe anymore. My body keeps floating in space. It was a necessary sacrifice. Sometimes you have to stay back for the greater good. I volunteered for the mission. I decided to stay back and that's okay. I was ready to die. I have no guilt or regrets. Someone had to do it.

I am an old woman in the garden. I am wearing a loose white shirt, a green hat and yellow gloves. I am planting flowers. I am serene and content. It is 11 am in the morning. I spend most of my mornings like this. My children don't stay with me. I have a loving husband. My house is lovely. It is Paris.

I am in the hospital. I have cancer. My husband is there. I am waiting for my children. The children are here. They brought balloons and cake. My grandchildren are here too and I am absolutely delighted to see them. I have a son and a daughter.

I did not die of cancer. My cancer got cured. I died peacefully one morning. My husband had gone to make tea and I decided to sleep a little more and never woke up. The last thing on my mind was how much I love my husband. I look exactly like my grandmother when she died, curled up and peaceful. I am buried with white roses. The family is clad in white. They are smiling because they know I died peacefully. My daughter is Bandan (my current sister). My name is Elizabeth. I die in the 2000s. Love is everything. Happiness is not complicated. You don't need much to be happy.  I lived a very ordinary and normal life. It was very simple but I was happy.

I am a queen of a small kingdom in Egypt. I have straight black hair, whitish skin and dark eyes like that of a cat. I am wearing a gold crown with a snake hood on it. I am detached from my duties. I don't care about the people or the kingdom. There is a feast and I look unconcerned. It is night time. There are pyramids in the background. I am sitting on the throne with a cup of wine in my hand. It is poisoned. I killed myself. I was so lonely. It was the only way out of the misery. Death was the only escape.

In childhood as a kid  was standing in rags looking at things in the market on the street. I look at the queen's convoy. She spots me and takes me along. She adopts me. Why me, I wonder. She was cold and never loved me. She is dead now and so am I. [The Queen is my real life mother]. She was lonely. She just wanted some company. She never had children. She had killed herself too. She didn't know how to express love but I was a kid. It was nobody's fault. I am sorry. I forgive her. I hug her and feel love. [ smile ]

I don't have to be responsible all the time. I don't need to take ownership of everything. I must learn to move on and forgive.  I didn't have to kill myself really. I could have run away. [Killing self is against the law is the universe]

Light White Only White, coming from inside of me but I can still see my head, hands and feet. I am not ready for the message. There is no message.