As
Dr. Vandana Raghuvanshi took me
to to my past life ....
.And when I reached the mosques it was noon
and there were men praying ( Namaaz). I was there on an assignment, maybe a
documentary or some research, I was a white woman in my early twenties. I was
asked to see where I was the next day or same night and I saw myself hiding
under a shelf , waiting to run away from a man who had a turban , beard but had
no moustaches. I knew I was in Afghanistan. I saw that the next day I had ran
away and I was lost in a place of low dry mountains, the next scene was that I
was held captured by some men , one of them was the guy I had seen in that
mosque.
I
was being held captive for a few months , raped by few men , my hands were tied
, I was asking for my death every minute. It was a strange feeling, I had the
body but there was no soul , or maybe my soul was numb, I felt I am alive yet
dead. I was mentally physically and emotionally numb, I wld not even feel the
physical pain, the cold , hunger anymore.
I had a glimpse of my childhood too, I grew up in a loving family , I grew up with
no major event , it was this job and the assignment that was the major incident
in my life, I was happy and ready to explore and when I was saying bye to my
family I saw a young man who perhaps I loved but I told myself I would be with
him when I come back, I would have time enough. I had kept myself and my career
above love and family , the same thing I have done in this life too .
Next was my death scene, my soul just
wanted to get over with this life, a taxing life indeed. I saw that I had
managed to loosen up the ropes around my wrist , managed to snatch away the
dagger from the beard man’s waist and stabbed myself in chest (not heart) and
my stomach, I died after few days due to the wounds and infection, lonely
painful death.
They left my body there . I was guided to
light by dr.vandana raghuvanshi. I
wanted to rest .
The lesson I learnt that being fearless and
independent is good but one needs to be cautious too, I also learnt being
ambitious and loving one’s career or choices good but family , love and
relationships should be given priority.
One of my biggest fear in this life has
been losing my mom or family members when I am not with them and now I know
where that comes from , I also have feared dying a lonely death which has been
a repeated pattern in my soul journey and I need to release this block. The
connection to my present life is that even in this life I have been keeping
family and love on hold thinking I have enough time to go back to them but the
truth is family and love is to be our highest priority , life needs to be
balanced , one should draw a line for everything and one should give time to
all 3- 4 important life components........................I can very well
connect this life to my present life.
Thank you Dr.Vandana for you invaluable
help , guidance and support...I should go now, have so much to do to get my
family together and make my soulmate to take the step...Good luck to all!!
