Exploring past life
A young woman came for PLR session to explore some issues.
Session...
I am a young boy. My
father is drunk all the time and beats my mother. My father is very foul
mouthed person. I do not speak much so that not to hurt others. Now I am a
young man riding a horse. A young pretty girl in the field looks at me and smiled.
I bow my head and pass by. I liked her beautiful eyes. Now I use to go that way.
She owns bigger Farm and home than ours.
It feels we are
getting married in Church. My mom is happy. My father is completely drunk. We
are very happy. We all live happily in my home. My father passed away.
Lot of activity is
happening in home. I am afraid. It is delivery time. It is raining and is very
cold. My mother came and told it is a dead baby girl. I am upset. I console my
mother and wife. They are crying. I took the dead baby out and buried her. It
is quite cold outside. I am crying desperately all alone. After this incident I
become more quieter. It feels I want my girl child back. It seems I am not
happy from inside. I do not want to live in this house. Here my father used to
beat my mother and my child died. After
some time my wife gave birth to a son. She is very happy but I feel OK. Now my
expressions never change. My wife does everything at home and I keep sitting on
the chair or bed with a pipe in my mouth. Now my wife and son sleep in another
room. It is European country. In day time I ride my horse and go in the village
to meet my friends.
Today my wife is very
upset. My house is very old now and needs repair. She is crying and said you do
not care for us. I do not even talk to her. I remain absorbed in self now. She
wanted some answers but I went to my room.
There is some
celebration in the village. I took my wife and son who is now a tall teenager.
My wife is very happy and smiling. It is a fair and she is enjoying every bit
of it. She is looking very beautiful in a long dress. Even I am smiling today.
We all come back home happily. My son said I am grown up now so I will sleep alone.
My wife came to my room and slept. I am sitting on the chair watching her
sleeping peacefully with a smile on her face. I wanted to say I love you but I
cannot. Suddenly my focus is shifting to a small gun in the almirah. I have not
used it in awhile. My mind is stuck to the gun. Suddenly I get up and took it
in my hand and thought that I am a failure. I shot myself in head. It is early
morning time. My wife got up. She is shocked. She took it on her. She thought
she slept here that is why I shot myself. She is screaming. My son comes and runs
outside calling people for help. Few people gather and are very surprised. They
all saw me so happy last night. My age is less than 50. People are burying me.
My wife is looking helpless. My last thought was I wanted her to be always
happy. The lesson I learnt that we have no right to take our own life whatever
may be the situation. In light the masters guided. Guidance came that you need
to balance your karma. Lot of other messages came about what is the purpose of
this life.
Reorientation.....
She said I had a
craving for a girl child even before my marriage. My brother is my past life
son and I treat him as a son. Even before my marriage I was without any reason very
afraid of domestic violence. In my present life also I cannot handle emotions
well. Doctor you will be surprised since childhood whenever there is rain I
start to shiver. My wife is my present life husband. My father is my past life
mother. In my life I am highly attached to my father. I am married for a year
and a thought comes I have to be fit, healthy and fine for the child birth. I
will always remember this session which gave me so much insight about myself.
