PLR session to find answer in past life
A client said Dr Vandana! I want to know about my past life relationship with a person whom I love immensely in my present life.
Session.....
I am a 19 years old tribal boy. I live in a Kutcha house. The land is very dry. There is no water. There is another boy with me who is 16 year old. I am very much attracted to him. We seem to be very happy together. We hide around because we both are boys and have feelings for each other. He has much more understanding about our relationship than me. Now I am a grown up man and linked with religious activities of our tribe.
I am in some position of power. People started respecting me. It seems I will become priest later on. Time is going on. I started getting uncomfortable with our relationship. I always feel we must not be seen together. He has very strong feelings for me. My feelings are much stronger than his but my position does not permit me to express them openly. One day when he was getting intimate I pushed him aside. I also told him - you go. He was very hurt and left the tribe. I did not stop him. He is looking very sad.
Life does not make any sense after he left. I thought GOD will help me bear the pain I am feeling but my pain does not reduce. Life is going on. I am 45 years old now. I am in a temple. There is a black idol of Goddess. I think I am the chief priest now. I do not have a family. I am not happy. I am sitting and feeling very restless. I am missing my partner very badly. I am waiting for him but the he does not show up. I just keep on waiting. I know I lost him forever due to my action. I am a coward and could not carry on with our love relationship further due to the fear of religion. I do not feel the person will come. I am sad (visibly crying).
My life became very painful. I keep remembering that guy. I kept waiting for so long. I am tired of it now. I am going to sleep. I started walking away from the village. I keep on walking thinking about him only. My body is getting fragile. I reached near a river. It is evening I am sitting near the river and died. There was lot of sadness in me. My last thought was I lost my love due to religion.
Few hunters came by. They took away my belongings and burnt me. The person is the person I love so immensely in present life. He knows about it but ignores my feelings. I am going towards the light and asking forgiveness from him. In light guidance came he will not forgive me in present life also. I have to stop trying now and need to learn to be OK with everything that is in my life.
