Why I have to face loneliness?
Session……
Ist life
I am in a home. It is morning. An
old man is sitting on a chair with tea along with me. There is none else in the
home. Now I am near a horse outside home. My friend came. We are sitting happily, drinking beer and
laughing.
I am going to my work place. I am
in my 20s. It is a factory. My friend also works here. Our boss is very
dominating. We do not want to work here.
After a year the old man did not
get up. I am not sad. He is my present life grandfather. Now I do not work and am
very happy. I watch sunset every day. It seems to be an area populated with
cowboys. I got married within a year. We have fruit garden and now I make wine
at home. I have athletic body and am very fit. I have a son now and very happy.
My work is growing. We are a happy family.
My son is almost 10 now and not
well. It is night time. He is vomiting blood. He died. We are very sad. My work
is growing but now I do not work as before. I sit on the old man’s chair and
watch the roof.
I am in factory. I am in my 50s. The
workers started running towards my home. My wife hanged herself. She could not
survive. We buried her.
I do not go to work now. I am
getting old sitting on the chair. Now no one comes to meet me. Work is closed.
There is no food and I keep on drinking. I died in the night watching stars through
the window. I died peacefully. I was remembering about my childhood. We were
five children. I was the youngest. The elder three went away when grown up. One
night a thief came to our home and killed my mother, brother and hit my father.
After that my father could not walk. I wound up everything and came to this
place along with my father. I was 20 years old at that time. I felt lonely since
that time till my end.
2nd life
I am going to college. It is
recent times. I am 18 yr old boy, a good student. All type of students study
here. Now I am in the home with my parents. We are praying. We are Christians.
We are a happy family.
It is convocation time. My
parents are here. We are happy. I got a job in other country. My father is sad.
I packed my things. My room is now empty. One of my friends is also going along
with me. It is early 19th century. I work in a office. I developed friendship
with one colleague. We spend good time together after office. After a year I
talked to her regarding marriage. She refused and we separated. I also left the job in that office. I started
drinking. I could not find another job. I even asked my parents to send me
money. Then one day I decided to go back home. I am happy at home. I started a
NGO for children. Now I am in 40s. I did not marry but we are happy. My father
died of heart attack and my mother went into depression. One day she took
sleeping pills and died. Now I am all alone at home from morning till evening.
I am busy with children. It seems my health is not good. I have asthma now. It
is afternoon. I suddenly felt breathless. I came out of my room and fell. I
died. I am 55. Children and staff are crying. They buried me with respect. My
last thought was Alas! I should have had
my own family. In light felt at peace.
Reorientation…
Few days after session, subject telephonically
intimated that my matrimonial alliance activity has now picked up pace.
