Why I met him?
She wanted to know why I chose my
present life husband. I want to experience root cause life linked to my present
troubled married life.
Session….
I am walking on narrow path lined
with lot of trees on both sides. Now I am crossing river. I am a woman in mid my
20s wearing a long dress. I reached a blue door. It is a small house. I opened
the door and climbing the stairs. A 5 year old boy is sleeping. I am coming
down and going to kitchen. There is garden at the back. It is Eastern Europe.
Now I am in the market. An old man is trying to speak to me. I am feeling
irritated. I do not like him. I ignored him. He looks like my present life
husband. I came back home.
One day that old man started
knocking at my door. I opened the door, shouted at him and told him not to
come. I closed the door. He is my father. I am sitting and thinking about my
childhood. I am the only child. My father is an alcoholic, always drunk and no
work. My mother died when I was 15 years old. Very soon after that a very
influential man married me. I lived with them in a villa. His mother never
talked to me. I gave birth to a son. He shifted me along with my son to this
small house. My mother used to call me Pollina. My husband visits us and
provides us things.
I am watching my kitchen. It is
burnt as if something fell from outside and burnt it. I feel afraid. I went to
market to find my father. I asked him to come home. He lives down stairs, keeps
on drinking, fighting and asking for money. One day he was breaking bottle on
the table and arguing. Suddenly my husband came. He saw it. He took me and my
son with him. Now my son is 14 years old. We reached the villa. I am thinking how
badly I was living with my father (visibly crying). My mother in law is not giving
any reaction. My room is big but I sleep alone. It is 1859. My husband does not
talk to me in presence of his mother. I am in 40s wearing very different expensive
clothes. Now I manage everything in the estate. My mother in law and husband
died in an accident. Once I went to meet my father. He is sad and depressed. He
said he loves me a lot and wants to live with me. I refused. He asked for help him
with money. I did not help and came back. He is feeling bad that I am not
helping him at all. My life is moving on smoothly in the villa. One day I did
not feel good. I am on the bed. Someone is checking me but I died. In the last
moment I felt very sad. My love life was not satisfactory. It seems my father
wanted to live with me. He was an alcoholic and he is my present life husband
now who is also an alcoholic. When I married him he was a divorcee with two
kids. I was not married and doing good in my profession. I feel I had to marry
him in this life to help and heal him. I am going towards light. It is very
peaceful here. Someone is giving me a message to improve my physical health and
connect more with nature.
