A 28 year old well educated,
married, NRI woman having 1 year old son came to find the answer as to…..
1. Why
sometimes my ego possesses my mind completely like an evil? My ego is too
strong that Jealousy & hatred preoccupies my mind very often.
2. Why
do I enjoy negative visualization?
She said Dr. Vandana, if
you can help me to find the reason for all this , I will be at peace.
Session…..
I
am a child playing with my sister. We are orphans living in a Church. I am 16
now. I leave my sister in the Church for her safety and join army. I did not want
to live in the Church any more. I am under training and live in a tent. I am 24 years of age and an army officer now.
I am posted in prison. I am married now. I drink a lot at home and torture my
wife physically & emotionally both. I feel very happy when she cries. I am
in some European country.
I
am now 40 and on duty. I am standing along with three four men in a very dirty
room. There is a girl. She is very afraid of me. I beat and torture her. I feel
very happy when she cries in pain. We all rape her and laugh. I go home, drink
and beat my wife. My life is like this, I torture prisoners in jail and wife at
home. I feel happy when they are in pain.
My
home is located in isolation and only two of us live here. I drink a lot. She
looks very afraid. Now I am torturing her. She is crying and pleading don’t do
this, don’t do this. I tortured her to death. I cremated her and no one
questioned me.
I
am 50 plus now. I constantly hear her cries. I feel guilty. I cannot do anything
now. I cannot forget her. I am 70 years old and all alone. Nobody meets me. I
cough a lot. I feel guilty but I still want to torture someone. There is pin
drop silence in the house. I want to die. I leave home and climb up to a cliff.
I jumped into water below and fall on my head. My lungs are filled with water.
I have drowned. I am dead. My corpse is floating in the water.
Guided
to the light ….Master light advised to serve people unconditionally in the
present life to get happiness.
Reorientation…
She
told I have carried Ego and anger from my past life. Now after experiencing my
past life I understand how much harm it can do to me and my family. It has been
an eye opening for me. With masters guidance now I will do social service. My
negative visualization is also linked to my weird actions in past life memory. I
do hope I have released this pattern today. Doctor, I also wish to share with
you that I never shared with anyone till date that I was badly molested by
three men in my teen age in this present life. Today I know why it happened to
me. She looked very relaxed and expressed her deepest gratitude to me.
