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It is a village. I live in a hut. I am 7 years and I am
very black. My whole family is black. We are manual workers. Epidemic has
spread in the village. My parents, sister and lot of villagers are dead. All
are cremated together. The survivors are crying. I go to others for meals. I
started manual work when I grew up. Now I am 22 years of age. Villagers have arranged
my marriage. I am walking in the front. Very few people are walking along with
me. It is very simple Mandap and marriage ceremony.
I am in hut with my wife. She is very fair, beautiful
with oval face. I am having inferiority complex. I look ugly and she is
beautiful. I am feeling disconnected with her. During day I go to work & in
night I lose confidence. She shouts at me. I feel very inferior to her. I lost confidence of having sex due to inferiority
complex. I never had physical relation with her. She started shouting at me out
of frustration. I feel ashamed of myself. I am 30 years and my wife eloped with
someone. I am very sad. I am in the hut all alone. I work and roam here and
there.
I am 40 years. I walk down to the temple located on the
bank of river. I jump into the river. I am dead. It was an empty life. The lesson
I needed to learn - How to live all alone?
Guided to light received guidance from master that you
are destined to live alone in this life. As regards birth in strange family, you
are repaying for the hurt meted out to them in one of your lives.
