Un-controlled sexual urge and Past life link
Session….
It is a small house in a village in the hills of Himachal. I am six
year old boy playing with other children. My father is sick and bed ridden. My
grandparents are old. A group of Jogis came and they took me away along with
them promising to treat my father’s sickness. My mother is crying. My grandparents are
helpless.
I am crying. They take me very far away on to a hill top. They
cut my hair, beat me and make me clean the whole area. They sexually abuse me
daily. I am 13 year old and they hit my penis with sticks. They crush my penis.
I am 17. I escape and am running very fast. I am very angry with
these people because of the way they hurt me. I roam here and there. Now I am
23 and living in a Kutia outside a village. I have grown a beard and do Tapsya.
There is a lady who cleans the area, gives me food and lives with me. I usually
avoid getting close to her. I am aware that I am not capable to fulfill her
desire, so I concentrate on my Tapsya. Now I am 41. She left with someone. Villagers
give me food. I collect herbs/ medicinal plants to prepare medicines for the
villagers. People are happy with me and respect me. I am also happy. Slowly
people from surrounding villages also start visiting me for medicine. I teach
them how to prepare medicine from herbs and plants. I am 66, I feel my end is near
so I decide to leave and go back to jungle. Villagers do not allow me to leave
but I insist, so they agree.
Now, I live in a small Kutia built near a tree. I am writing a book
on Ayurveda medicine.
It seems probably two people stab me in the abdomen and take away
my book. I pull the dagger out and try to apply medicine. I am bleeding
profusely and dying a slow death. I am lying and thinking about my childhood, my
young age and that I could not have sex. Villagers came and found me dead. They
cremated me and built a memorial in my name. It was 1885. Lesson learnt “forgive
and help everyone.”
Reorientation…
He said that it is so surprising that continued sexual abuse in
childhood and the incidence of not being able to fulfill sexual urge in
adulthood in my past life of 1885, still have so strong imprints in my
subconscious mind in the present life. In this life I love my medical profession.
Now I feel very relieved & light. Thank you doctor, you helped me to find
the reason behind my most difficult issue in present life.
